When you get into the late years of junior high and high school there are a sort of unspoken regulations and rules and if you fractured one of these rules you're labeled as the weird kid or the cringe kid, and I broke many many of those rules.

The Reality

I moved to a different city at the beginning of junior high and I still remember how much I hated my old school. (I'm not going to get into that maybe thats a story for another time). Because of this, I ended up cutting off all contact with everyone from there even my few close friends which today I can say is something I regret because I still had plenty of great memories with them, but like I've said before the brain prefers negativity over positivity so back then I was only thinking about the bad. I just wanted to start all over again, so I did. Moving on, back during this time I really wanted to make Minecraft videos for a living, it was all I ever did in my free time and I poured my heart and soul into it sense it gave me a sense of purpose. I was never really considered a popular kid but at the same time I was never at the bottom of the social hierarchy because I got to know a lot of people because my friend groups that I hung out with the changed because I was so new here. So I started to tell some of my friends about this dream of mine. Most people could relate to me at the time, I was still young so everyone was showing support, as a grade six your meant to have unique dream and your meant to bring heart to the school, but as soon as you get into grade 7 and 8 its all "unrealistic" and are just simply not the interests most people could relate to. It was at this point in time where a lot of people who I thought were my friends turned out weren't actually my friends. I got called obsessed, and got made fun of a lot. People would blast out my videos during lunch and shit like that which often hurt my ego. This is when I think of the dilemma, should people just hide who they were and stay quiet while being constantly anxious, or should they comply with telling people about their endeavours and get shut down by everyone while at least staying true to themselves, the answer to this I didn't know and to be honest I still don't really know right now.

The Lesson

Fairly recently like a couple months ago I lost this desire, mainly because of the other things I had access to and other fields available. Nevertheless, to this day I'm proud of myself for not falling because of the annoyance of others, even so I learned a few things from this experience. Mainly that quick success is a curse not a blessing; people tend to forget the aspect of luck and that it plays a role and that if you achieve that one thing that determines your success, (a sale, a viral video, etc) very early on chances are you have no idea what the hell you're doing and you won't be able to maintain that success. that being said, if your success is slow but consistent know that god is just molding you into the person you need to be to maintain that success. I take this and remind myself of this with the new ambitions and goals I have today and I recommend you do to.

Conclusion

Listen, chances are these people hating on you're dreams and calling you unrealistic will be right, they will be, and for a long time as well, especially if your a beginner. Its impossible to throw a dream into the world without it get rejected, the more ambitious the bigger the barrier, its just like newtons third law for every force in nature there is an equal and opposite reaction. But that also means the more struggle you go through the larger the result in the end. Thanks for reading bro, see ya in the next one.